the busy bee known as me :-)

My 3rd post! YAY! I'm still figuring this blog out, but I really haven't had too much time to focus energy on it. I'm automatically busy by being a mommy, and a wife... and I've added setting school up, planning Halloween/Thanksgiving/Christmas, house-warming, our wedding anniversary AND vow renewals! Photos, festivals, the normal household duties (I'm a CLEAN FREAK) and just L I F E. I haven't had much time to even think about "social-networking" and I'm not complaining. I don't really like facebook, except for adding pictures and checking in with people. Myspace is dead too. I hate twitter. And any other website I've missed out lol.I don't know what it is about fb, but I can't stand the way a lot of people act on there. I just want to say THIS ISN'T REAL LIFE! No one cares to read what you're doing every second of every day. Also, I HATE when people are fake on there or all about the drama. You can say anything you want on a silly website, but what counts is what you DO. Actions really do speak louder than words. I LOVE keeping up with my heart families and high school friends though. The internet just doesn't seem real to me....kind of like spending too much time on here is taking away from real life. Which is actually pretty accurate. So I'll still be adding pics, updates, etc...just not as frequently as most.  No facebook,myspace,twitter,etc could ever compare to living real life and making wonderful memories :-).... Atleast not MY life or memories!

On a different note, today is the 2 month angelversary of the 2 precious angels we had to give back to God. I've learned a huuuuuuuge amount of life lessons going to Wren High. We've lost TOO MANY classmates, and each one we lose hurts even more than the last. Life is really to short to worry about anything or anyone that doesn't truly matter. I've told my sister a few times to cherish the people she goes to school with because they won't be here forever and you can't get them back. Live life for our loved ones who no longer have the option. I'll just end there because I have too many feelings and words to say for a silly little blog. <3 0:-)

7 isn't a lucky number lately...

7 (probably more that I'm unaware of) precious CHDers have been lost in the past few days. Its heartbreaking and terrifying, but I will keep faith and pray for these families. We have to take one day at a time. Last night, I found myself just staring at Emmett without even realizing it. I was staring at his sweet little curls, his loooooong eyelashes and beautiful blue eyes, his perfect nose and full lips. He has the most infectious smile of any child I've ever known. He is so far beyond beautiful its ridiculous...not only outside, but inside. Its so hard to imagine him not here with us, even though the negative/scary thoughts can creep in sometimes. I got him a t-shirt the other day that said "LifeSaver" on it- it was made to look like a lifeguard's shirt- because he has saved our lives. Maybe not physically, as a lifeguard does, but emotionally. He's a lifeguard of the heart and soul...haha :-). Emmett has brought so much more to our lives than we could ever give to him. He has made us the very best of who we can be. For me, he's taught me about life and love, and brought a happiness like no other. He's brought passion and inspiration. Because of him, I want to BE more and truly live. There are no words to describe my love and adoration for him. I am so grateful to have him, "broken" heart and all. I would go through everything we've been through over and over again for him. He hasn't had the easiest road, but he's here and he's HIM. and that means so much more to me than having an ordinary baby. He's extraordinary and he makes life extraordinary! I will thank God every single second for his life, and for giving me the most amazing responsibility and trusting me with such a miraculous, special little boy. Emmett for STRENGTH! <3



a few things I would like to add:
*Congenital Heart Defects are America's and every other country's #1 birth defect
*CHDs are the leading cause of infant deaths and #1 cause of birth defect related deaths (in America)
*aprx. 40,000 babies are born every year with CHD. Many won't see their first birthdays and thousands will die before adulthood.
* For the first time, more than 50% of CHD survivors are adults (AWESOME!)
*In the United States, twice as many children die from congenital heart defects each year than from all forms of childhood cancer combined, yet funding for pediatric cancer research is five times higher than funding for CHD. 
*There are more than 40 different types of congenital heart defects. Little is known about the cause of most of them. There is no known prevention or cure for any of them.